wag mo nang ipilit
wag mo nang piliting lumapit
ako'y iyong limutin
baka pa ang langit magalit

balikan mo ang dati
isipin kung saan ka nagkamali
nar'yan ka pa ba
nagluluksa sa dilim
ubos na ang luha

bago na ang tinig
bago na ang ihip ng hangin
ubos na ang luha
sa langit at lupang atin

alaala inaamag sa isipan
nar'yan ka pala
nagdurusa sa dilim

ubos na ang luha
sa langit at lupa


..wala lang..

i feel so alone.. i wish i could be with her again.. my life's been a downfall ever since she left.. what we had.. felt so real that until now i couldnt let go.. feb 8 2203.. i was so frustrated because i wasnt picked to be one of the ushers in angeli's (yihee :p) prom.. but then.. that night.. when i was about to call my bestfriend and just rant.. jes called.. and obviously we talked.. (duh!) hehe.. nwy that was the first time she told me directly she was falling.. but cant.. because its complicated.. plus the fact that she's still scared of getting hurt.. i assured her she didnt have to.. sigh.. highschool.. life was good.. for the first 16 years of my existence i've been imprisoned (well.. maybe im exaggerating a little but hey.. felt like it nwy..) in my own hell.. angeli came but she never really took me out of there.. she kept me company.. jes.. sigh.. she was out of my league.. but she held out her hand.. and took me out of my own damnation.. she saved my soul from the devouring hatred that's surrounding it.. i wish she's here with me.. i'd still hate the world but hey.. im gna hate it happily.. at least.. feb 8 2003.. as far as im concerned.. that was the sweetest talk we had.. well.. probably next to march 7.. :p i shouldnt have been too possessive.. i was just scared.. i dont wna lose her.. was just so scared.. im sorry.. i shouldnt have.. i shouldve trusted her more.. or maybe just made her feel that i do trust her.. im sorry.. i just miss everything about her.. "my soul is not satisfied it has lost her"..

sorry sa drama guys.. hehe.. once a month lang naman... pag tyagaan nyo na.. :p


jes.. mi amor.. if ur reading this.. i shouldve been better.. im sorry.. i love you still.. please come home.. give me another chance.. i miss you so much..

She chose to walk alone, though others wondered why

Refused to look before her, kept eyes cast upwards towards the sky

She didn't have companions; no need for earthly things

Only wanted freedom from what she felt were puppet strings

She longed to be a bird, that she might fly away

She pitied every blade of grass, for planted they would stay

She longed to be a flame that brightly danced alone

Felt jealous of the steam that made the air its only home

Some say she wished too hard; some say she wished too long

But we awoke one autumn day to find that she was gone

The trees, they say, stood witness; the sky refused to tell

But someone who had seen it said the story played out well

She spread her arms out wide, breathed in the break of dawn

She just let go of all she held...and then she was gone



-and she was gone, as told by ginger (nickelodeon)

studying economics.. while playing this game on the net "stickman murder mysteries".. its interesting.. i cant believe im studying economics..! we dont even have a quiz tomorrow.. today's fine.. didnt attend class again.. went to chillout (this place where you can rent a "room" and watch movies) with my good friends gen, kat and celine.. we watched "shall we dance?".. its really good.. and j.lo's body... wow! hehe.. currently eating s'mores.. wow!! heaven..!!! heaven!! :) want one..? :)